Not Wanted

Feeling rejected
Has never been a joy
For either one involved.

Embarrassment
is what you claim
because I have a crush.

It's ridiculous
yes, that I understand
you do not have to tell me.

Deep emotional
thoughts are what I have
but what you do not think of,

this burning pain
within me forcing me to act
is not what I foster and stoke.

It's not wanted.
No, I didn't ask to be beguiled
I didn't ask for infatuation.

It's not wanted!
Do you really think I wished
to pursue an impossible goal?

I never wanted to feel like this
a hopeless realization that I'm,
Not Wanted!

J.A.Scott